Good mIorning everyone!
I've not posted in quite a long time, and it isn't because I don't want to, nor is it for the lack of material to write about, but more because there is SO much I could write about and it is difficult to try to piece one thing together in one spot at one time. I have a LOT going on.
I've taken a small hiatus from just about everything, as there has been a lot coming at me all at once. I've had to slow down quite a bit, do a LOT of meditation, and just BE for a while. It is like every new day brings with it a new set of puzzles to put together and a new discomfort of some sort. These discomforts range from emotional to mental to physical...and ALL of them are here to tell me something and I'm a pretty sharp individual, so I think I got the big picture down, though the process of fitting the pieces together eludes me. It is not so much the WHY's...but the HOW's. I know why. Usually, WHY (?) is the biggie and I usually already know the whos, whats, whens and hows.
I believe I am going through yet another refining process right now, and have the distinct feeling that this is a BIG one. It feels like the beginning of something I've never experienced before in my life, like I'm standing at midpoint between touching the sky and taking a hard fall and there is this unseen force constantly prodding me "what are you going to do now?"...sink or swim, run or crawl, grab onto or let go of, but I don't really know how to swim, where to run...I am directionless. I'm stuck at the beginning of something that could ultimately define the reason for my existence. I have a long-term vision, I have a plan, but I have this relentless "pushing" to be doing something NOW but within that long-term vision and plan, there is a "Yield" sign and I find myself at a crossroads once again.
I've been doing a LOT more listening than talking lately and a LOT more observing than taking action--which is probably the reason for my absence here. This has been at an EXTREME level, more extreme than I've ever experienced before...and it gives me a LOT to think about. It goes back to my post on relevance. What worked before may not necessarily be relevant to now and now I have to figure out what works for NOW. So instead of building (which I am so accustomed to doing)..I'm dissecting. I know what parts are not functioning correctly, but I am having a problem with implementation of "right" replacements. So at this point, I am motionless.
The one thing I know for sure is this: I KNOW who I am. I know why I do everything I do (or did everything I did), and through this dissection process I'm finding all of the parts and pieces...so I can ultimately find out ALL of what I'm made of and update some things to make them more apropos to the changing times.
I wish to all a good day.
I've not posted in quite a long time, and it isn't because I don't want to, nor is it for the lack of material to write about, but more because there is SO much I could write about and it is difficult to try to piece one thing together in one spot at one time. I have a LOT going on.
I've taken a small hiatus from just about everything, as there has been a lot coming at me all at once. I've had to slow down quite a bit, do a LOT of meditation, and just BE for a while. It is like every new day brings with it a new set of puzzles to put together and a new discomfort of some sort. These discomforts range from emotional to mental to physical...and ALL of them are here to tell me something and I'm a pretty sharp individual, so I think I got the big picture down, though the process of fitting the pieces together eludes me. It is not so much the WHY's...but the HOW's. I know why. Usually, WHY (?) is the biggie and I usually already know the whos, whats, whens and hows.
I believe I am going through yet another refining process right now, and have the distinct feeling that this is a BIG one. It feels like the beginning of something I've never experienced before in my life, like I'm standing at midpoint between touching the sky and taking a hard fall and there is this unseen force constantly prodding me "what are you going to do now?"...sink or swim, run or crawl, grab onto or let go of, but I don't really know how to swim, where to run...I am directionless. I'm stuck at the beginning of something that could ultimately define the reason for my existence. I have a long-term vision, I have a plan, but I have this relentless "pushing" to be doing something NOW but within that long-term vision and plan, there is a "Yield" sign and I find myself at a crossroads once again.
I've been doing a LOT more listening than talking lately and a LOT more observing than taking action--which is probably the reason for my absence here. This has been at an EXTREME level, more extreme than I've ever experienced before...and it gives me a LOT to think about. It goes back to my post on relevance. What worked before may not necessarily be relevant to now and now I have to figure out what works for NOW. So instead of building (which I am so accustomed to doing)..I'm dissecting. I know what parts are not functioning correctly, but I am having a problem with implementation of "right" replacements. So at this point, I am motionless.
The one thing I know for sure is this: I KNOW who I am. I know why I do everything I do (or did everything I did), and through this dissection process I'm finding all of the parts and pieces...so I can ultimately find out ALL of what I'm made of and update some things to make them more apropos to the changing times.
I wish to all a good day.
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