Hi everyone!!
This morning, I would like to talk a bit about faith, leaning on it and how it eventually pays off.
Last nite, I sat quietly in my living room, my daughter SO excited to see her boyfriend who has been visiting family in Florida who will be coming to see her soon. She sat in the kitchen listening to music and texting him. As I sat in my living room, my attention was drawn to a tapestry my son had gotten me for Christmas that hangs on the wall in there...it is part of Michelangelo's "Creation of Adam"...just the outstretched arms and hands...I stared at that picture as if I hadn't really noticed it before, and then as if there was something missing there that I hadn't seen..I just sat and stared at it as thoughts of answered prayer were abounding in my mind...then for a minute, I thought about my kids and how happy they are in their personal lives with their "mates" and how my daughters are treated by their boyfriends, and the bright radiance of their faces when thier "men" are in their company, and I smiled. I think about how the "I'm sorry, I'm a man" excuse was never used by my son...how morally stringent he is when it comes to promises he makes to his girlfriend...even during tough times, he would never disrespect her in any way behind her back...there are no secrets, no lies...he is very hard working (he is a little rough around the edges...not gonna lie), but he is SO good to his mother and his sisters and would DO ANYTHING for anyone who needs his help...I have actually seen him OFFER to strangers because he SENSED a need. This AGAIN, made me smile. It is every parent's wish that they can provide for their own children what they didn't have...and as I step back and look, THEY HAVE EVERYTHING they need...and lately, all that I didn't have....everything that is important....self respect, respect for others, a screaming sense of humor, and you know what...they ALL LOVE their momma so much and there is NOTHING in my life that I love more than them. I see all of this love encircling me right now...my tenants are truly inspirational, very young, very much in love, just welcomed a product of that love into the world last week...I am surrounded by the most positive and beautiful energy right now and last nite, as I stared at my tapestry, it enveloped me and I realized that I had once again been reacquainted with faith. I have been so BUSY trying to do God's job in my life, that I have not rested in my faith. I have learned a very hard lesson here which is: When you worry, when you become anxious about what the day is going to bring, when you put all of YOUR energy into changing things, you do not REST....and then you PRAY for rest, you pray for peace, but you do it in a way that helps YOUR cause. But what I have realized is that if you take a damn break for just a MINUTE, and ALLOW your prayer to be answered, surrender your cause for just a split second in time...you will realize when the reigns are taken from you, you WILL GET what you ask for, it just may not go in accord with WHAT you WANTED. Big picture here is you will get what you need...PEACE, but you ain't gonna necessarily get all the "accessories" that go with it...and adding all these accessories to the main objective is what happens AFTER you get the main objective. I was dwelling on the accessories and had no main part to plug them into yet...I wanted it all, but sometimes, that is not meant to be, sometimes, we have to make ROOM in that closet for this new objective and all it's new accessories..we need to get RID of the obstacles to peace and ALLOW it to enter FIRST before we can begin adding to it. WOW! Where there is faith, there is peace, where there is peace there is strength, where there is strength there is capability, and where there is capability, there is creativity, and where there is creativity, you will find GOD and GOD in YOU.
I have finally gotten my peace, I have finally felt the LOVE because I have ALLOWED it to happen and now I sit breathing easy, refueling, and SO THANKFUL for what I have. I have been reminded of the life I have been given, of what I have believed, and the manifestation of that is ALL AROUND me right now...and I don't WANT what I don't have anymore...I am too busy appreciating and reveling in what I DO HAVE, and that faith WILL move mountains for me and I am not even CONCERNED right now about ordering all the accessories...I am going to allow them to be gifted to me and just be happy that I have the thing that OPERATES all the other stuff. It'll come, as long as I don't try to stiff-arm it into fruition. I am SO LOVED and I am ashamed I lost track of that while locked into my mission. But I am positive that I am KNOWN and that it is also KNOWN that my heart has ALWAYS been in the right place...I forgive myself and move on. After all, this entire time, all I did was punish myself...and I have learned. My ass will be sore for a little while from this whippin'...a constant reminder...spare the rod/spoil the child. Tears form in my eyes, but they are not cried over anything I may "percieve" to have lost, but more of shame for leaving myself behind like that for so long...busying myself with "fixing" problems I had no control over fixing to begin with. Everyone has to SEE and FEEL the love around them before any changes that will STICK are to take place.
LET GO...you'll be amazed what happens when you do..
“When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing one of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly” ~Patrick Overton.
"Faith is deliberate confidence in the character of God whose ways you may not understand at the time.” ~Oswald Chambers.
“Each one has to find his peace from within. And peace to be real must be unaffected by outside circumstances.”~Mahatma Gandhi.
“When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace.”
Jimi Hendrix
Good day all! :)
Signing today...
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